when soul meets body

I've felt so detached from myself lately. I need to go take a walk and find the pieces of myself that I have dropped and lost. It's almost as if I feel like I'm just a robot without feelings and walking around just completing tasks.

I don't even know why I'm feeling like this ... but it needs to stop.

Ughhh, Ughhhh

makes me laugh uncontrollably every single time



WATCH THE WHOLE THING. TRUST ME.

It's okay 'cause I'm still breathing...

Hating my job more than ever, still. My job really wears me out..I just wanted to come home today and drink but I feel exhausted. It's also pretty sad when all you want to do is come home and drink your life/anxiety away. Sometimes I really believe I'm becoming a binge drinker. If I don't have work the next day I feel that I must make sure that I have alcohol in the fridge so that I can let loose and act oblivious to all that is going on around me.
Ugh. I just need more to happen in my life. I'm 21 years old and every day just bleeds into the other. I should be living these years up and acting reckless.

listen up, yo

I've been getting REALLY sick of my job lately. I just don't want to handle it anymore.
February 20th I'm going to an orientation for a Certified Nursing Assistant program. Classes start in March and it's a 16 week course. After that I will take the State Exam and begin applying for jobs. I feel really good about this and it will be my first step into the Medical Field.

My Dad also has a friend that owns a bar in Collingswood. He left a message for him asking if they could teach me how to bar tend. That way when I finish school I can leave my current job .. work at a hospital during the day/week and weekends I can make some sweet tips by pouring drinks and flirting with older men. haha

I also just purchased tickets for 'Flight of The Conchords' at Tower Theater. I'm getting excited for this.

mhmm

fresh ta death.