And the days, and the days they seem like forever...But forever isn't ever enough!!

Streetlight Manifesto. Love them. Going to ska shows makes me feel like I'm sixteen again. I love it. Dancing is great. & good music is even better.

I'm confused as hell with a lot in my life. Sometimes, I feel like I am absolutely crazy. But I'm still so excited about this new chapter in my life. A restart is really something I've been needing for a while. Remaking friends and making new ones is all fantastic. I'm getting to know myself again and it feel great to be me. It feels great to just let loose. I can't wait to find somewhere new to live and I really hope it's with fantastic people. I'm also very excited to be able to afford life. For too long I was paying too much only to live with my boyfriend at the time. Paying way too much and having someone else depend on me. Thinking it was worth it. It wasn't and I really feel like that's what drove it all apart. I don't want to live with any love interest for a while. Sleep overs will be hella nice tho. I hate coming home and sleeping alone every single night. I need a cuddle buddy. I need someone who just accepts me for who I am and makes it obvious that they know how caring and wonderful I am. I've got a deep heart but a smart head. I don't want anything too serious just yet and I'm certainly not trying to push anything. If someone makes me happy then fine. But whatever happens happens. I'm going to keep one foot on the ground with anything that happens.

Also, I'm going to go to bar tending school. I want a job that I am going to have fun at. I don't want any more quotas and take rates. I don't want to have to worry about getting so much data on a contract, selling so many accessories per phone, setting up email, capturing their email, setting up their self service, friends and family, asking for referrals and closing small business deals. All while making the customer believe that I really care for them with a fake ass smile and laugh to go with it. I fucking hate it. It's redundant and lame. I really think I would be amazing at tending bar and waiting on people. Customer's love me now! I have a killer memory at work. I wanna do this until I figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. Sometimes I think it's medical, or somehow helping people, and sometimes I just want to own a bar/venue. I really have no idea. But whatever I do I want it to make me happy.