i love him in the most incredible way. finally, someone that i feel equal with. someone that loves me just as much as i love him. someone who is ridiculously nice as me and treats me in every way that i deserve. we are just plain incredible.

perfect

Valentines Day was won.der.ful. <333 I got together a banging outfit..pencil skirt, blouse, flats, and jacket. Spencer acted soooo excited when he saw me!!! I felt sooo good about myself. We went to a restaurant in Atlantic City and feasted on some seafood! Afterwards we went back to his place, drank wine, watched adorable footage of him as a young nerdy teenager in his old punk bands. CUTE.

Then yesterday he told me his sister forgot school work and that he had to drive to Philly to give it to her and wanted to come by and hangout! He showed up at my door with a suit and tie and would not come in until I read the card that he bought for me. Inside he taped a photo booth photos of him holding a sign in each one. First one said "Hi Colleen.." Second: "BE" Third: "MY" Fourth: "Girlfriend" and on the other side of the card he wrote two check boxes for Yes and No Thanks. He then whipped out a marker and asked me to fill it out! SO FUCKING CUTE. BEST EVER. HEAD OVER HEELS. Love every little thing about him.








oh, and of course I checked yes..

fuck it, if feeling vulnerable means i get to be this happy then i don't care. i'm pouring all of my emotions out .. this boy has my heart. he is pure gold.

Ugh, I've started feeling vulnerable.


so.fucking.scared.

snowed in

with the BEST boy ever. he brought over the best supplies and bought me roses.
<33333

i love

all of the friends that i have made in the last half year and all the others i've made stronger and less weak. i wouldn't want to give any of them up ever.

little things that i like to save

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” - Washington Irving

.you.always.smile.harder.in.a.photo.booth.

I have a love in my life. It makes me stronger than anything you can imagine.

Slowly falling with head over heels. Wonderful. Honestly, I am so hapy that things didn't work out with my ex. I would never be where I am now in my life and I would've never met this wonderful wonderful dude. Spencer is beyond wonderful.

Saturday night I drove down to Egg Harbor and we both arrived at his place at the same time. He bought some wine, talked with his family, and we watched a movie together. We can never ever wake up early so in the afternoon we got up went out for breakfast and drove over to Ocean City, walked on the boardwalk, went to the arcade and played video games together. Took photos in the photobooth. They are wonderful. After that we went over to the end of the beach/bay to watch the sun set. We then headed back to his house for a little bit and then went to the Hibatchi for dinner. So much fun, he made friends with the black women and they said they wanted to go to our wedding and showed him pictures of her baby. aaaaaaand after that we went to get more wine so that we could lay in bed and watch Rob & Big and then Zach Galifinakis comedy dvd. Perfect day. This morning we got up, grabbed some coffee together he went off to work and I drove him.

I like him in a HUGE way and I can be 100% myself with him. Never have I ever been able to do that with a guy. I act exactly how I act like when I am with my sister. It's fucking wonderful.

lets be honest

they use 'double dates' as a way to get closer with eachother.

my heart is yours to fill or burst..to break or bury..to wear as jewlery..whichever you prefer.

Best

First day off of 3 days and I don't think I could top it. Monday after work Spence drove up. We set off to see Avatar in IMAX 3D, grabbed coffees and came home. Watched Bruce Springsteen on Elvis Costello's Spectacle. Slept in. Went to the Skin and Bones Exhibit, ate/drank at the El Camino (delish!), Met up with Chris and his girl Tiffany and walked to the Franklin Institute to see Body Worlds 2, went back to her place for a bit and came back home. Slept and he left this afternoon for work. Way too much fun and a total bummer when he left! <3333333

Skin & Bones Exhibit!

 

Hey! You're part of it.

Monday Spence and I drove down to Baltimore to hang out with Deathbeds and to see their last show of their mini tour at the sidebar. Very fun, seriously love all of those boys lately. We got there a few hours early and then we all walked around the Harbour and got something to eat. We decided to plan a second trip/double date there for the aquarium!! Can't wait.

Spence has slept over 3 nights in a row and it was the best thing that could have ever happened. The only thing that sucked was when we would have to get up to go to work. Movies, beers, green, and excessive cuddling/kisses is all I really need in the winter. So wonderful. This boy is a winner, seriously. I feel like I have known him my entire life. Thank you universe for sending us to each other.

<3

Cheese

I can't even begin to explain how incredible I have felt for the last week. The way this boy talks to me and acts towards me is wonderful. Never, have I ever been treated like this and I absolutely love it. Perfect. I have had this huge grin on my face every time I open a text message from him and my cheeks start to hurt from the workout he is giving them. Both of us are completely stoked about the other it is ridiculous. I can not wait for tonight to get together with him and I totally cannot wait for Monday. We will be driving down to Baltimore for a show at the sidebar. We're going even earlier to spend time down by the Harbour and he is putting together a fabulous mix cd.

It's funny. Every one told me the moment I stopped looking that someone would appear. & literally when I said to hell with it for a little bit he came into the picture.

I.CANNOT.STOP.CHEESING. TOTALLY.SMITTEN.
<33333333333

Champagne Supernova

Oasis and green is fabulous together.


:)

i love when boys use to word gorgeous to describe me. f'real. amazing.

i can't waaaait to get my thighs tattooed. clavicle piercings. and i really really would love a chest piece, but i think my momma would killll me.

always a favorite.

mhmm

<3

this song and mark gonzales both rule.

Twenty-Ten will be my bitch.

YUP! So ready to start a fresh new year. 2009, you fucking sucked. Maybe the worst year I've ever had.

But, last night was awesome! I had to be at work today really early so I decided to go to the Carriage House with some friends. Got drunk and had a good time. It's awesome when multiple people just tell you that your ex boyfriend is an idiot for leaving you. It also rules to be told by many guys that you're beautiful all night. haha I'm not gonna lie, its a self esteem booster for sure. Right before midnight a random cute dude asked if I could be his midnight kiss. At the countdown we smootched for a bit, talked and went on our own ways. After that I ran on over to The Dive to make last call. Drank with Linh and other friends and chatted it up.