i love him in the most incredible way. finally, someone that i feel equal with. someone that loves me just as much as i love him. someone who is ridiculously nice as me and treats me in every way that i deserve. we are just plain incredible.

perfect

Valentines Day was won.der.ful. <333 I got together a banging outfit..pencil skirt, blouse, flats, and jacket. Spencer acted soooo excited when he saw me!!! I felt sooo good about myself. We went to a restaurant in Atlantic City and feasted on some seafood! Afterwards we went back to his place, drank wine, watched adorable footage of him as a young nerdy teenager in his old punk bands. CUTE.

Then yesterday he told me his sister forgot school work and that he had to drive to Philly to give it to her and wanted to come by and hangout! He showed up at my door with a suit and tie and would not come in until I read the card that he bought for me. Inside he taped a photo booth photos of him holding a sign in each one. First one said "Hi Colleen.." Second: "BE" Third: "MY" Fourth: "Girlfriend" and on the other side of the card he wrote two check boxes for Yes and No Thanks. He then whipped out a marker and asked me to fill it out! SO FUCKING CUTE. BEST EVER. HEAD OVER HEELS. Love every little thing about him.








oh, and of course I checked yes..

fuck it, if feeling vulnerable means i get to be this happy then i don't care. i'm pouring all of my emotions out .. this boy has my heart. he is pure gold.

Ugh, I've started feeling vulnerable.


so.fucking.scared.

snowed in

with the BEST boy ever. he brought over the best supplies and bought me roses.
<33333

i love

all of the friends that i have made in the last half year and all the others i've made stronger and less weak. i wouldn't want to give any of them up ever.

little things that i like to save

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” - Washington Irving

.you.always.smile.harder.in.a.photo.booth.

I have a love in my life. It makes me stronger than anything you can imagine.

Slowly falling with head over heels. Wonderful. Honestly, I am so hapy that things didn't work out with my ex. I would never be where I am now in my life and I would've never met this wonderful wonderful dude. Spencer is beyond wonderful.

Saturday night I drove down to Egg Harbor and we both arrived at his place at the same time. He bought some wine, talked with his family, and we watched a movie together. We can never ever wake up early so in the afternoon we got up went out for breakfast and drove over to Ocean City, walked on the boardwalk, went to the arcade and played video games together. Took photos in the photobooth. They are wonderful. After that we went over to the end of the beach/bay to watch the sun set. We then headed back to his house for a little bit and then went to the Hibatchi for dinner. So much fun, he made friends with the black women and they said they wanted to go to our wedding and showed him pictures of her baby. aaaaaaand after that we went to get more wine so that we could lay in bed and watch Rob & Big and then Zach Galifinakis comedy dvd. Perfect day. This morning we got up, grabbed some coffee together he went off to work and I drove him.

I like him in a HUGE way and I can be 100% myself with him. Never have I ever been able to do that with a guy. I act exactly how I act like when I am with my sister. It's fucking wonderful.