die young and save yourself

i'm sure you feel like life is fantastic when you place it next to the last 2 years of your life.

failed relationships one after another.
suicide attempt failed.
chlamydia.
living in a trailer park.
abusive boyfriends.
trying to get pregnant.

and i'm sure it will come all back again, full circle.

everyone that you know says how much of a fuck up you are. trainwreck and loser are repetative words that i hear used to describe you. and these are all people you call 'friends'


karma is a fucking bitch. act your age. i honestly deep down feel immensly sorry for you. get out of your fucking fantasy world. you jumped into something too deep and way too fast. you think this is real? this isn't real love. love is built. it's only infatuation with something new and fresh. you're living in a fantasy world. and you should seriously know that by now. people smile in front of your face but it isn't their true feelings.

stop pretending to be the bigger person because everyone can see through your fake facade. you consistantly try to be quite in the ways you try to annoy me - you try to get reactions out of me and all I can do is just laugh each and every time. it's not going to get to me. ever. not anymore.

and please let me see you outside of one of my friend's places. you will be so fucking sorry.