I'm staying on the charming side of drunk

I have no idea what going inside my mind anymore. I have never been this confused ever. What is going on in my life? I feel like it flipped upside down over night. I've enjoyed being with people a lot though and I'm happy I have great people in my life.

There's been some boys I've talked to. But honestly I don't want to be with anyone. I'm way to afraid to ever get hurt again.

Do you still believe in me like I believe

i don't think anyone could ever know how i feel. honestly. & i hate myself for it.

i really thought he was someone true and genuine. he was someone that i would've given the world to. someone i wanted to please so hard every day and every moment. someone who told me that they cared the same exact way about me. and he made me believe he honestly wanted to spend his life with me.

but nope. he didn't try hard enough and just fucked everything up and tried to get out of it the easy way. he says he is sorry and that he feels so bad over this but his actions don't speak the same way.

so whatever, you two deserve each other. it will never work anyway.

<3

you both are fucking scumbags

Heavy Heart

I still wake up all night and wonder why you are not in bed next to me..then call your name out to the living room only to remember I've lived in this apartment alone for the past week. My heart feels so very heavy all of the the time.

Two months ago he told me how much he wanted to be able to buy me a ring and only a week ago he was telling me how sad he gets when I go to work first because he misses holding me in his arms.